I am ME

Dear God ...

Please when you deal with me ...keep in mind that you created me like that with all the weaknesses and characteristics You know quiet well !!
You know my logic , my mind , my thinking, ....
If you need to change something don't do that the hard way !!

I am not Abraham...I don't have his faith
I am not Joseph...I don't have his patience and endurance
I am not Moses...I don't have his obedience ...


I am Me !!

1 Year

Dear God,

It has been one year since this incident happened...
I can't deny that you gave me peace when trouble first showed up...but unfortunately this state of "peace" didn't last long..
It has been a hard year for me and for those around me ...
Confusion...thoughts...fears...disbelief...
The past 12 months changed a lot in me...
I am afraid I have mutated to a new "me"...
The "aftermath" was not easy at all...
I keep asking and thinking how could it have been if things never went wrong...
Sometimes I have hopes in a better future...many times I just feel lost...
I don't want much..I don't ask for much..
I want a simple normal life...I am getting tired of being "special"...
I need to see my simple dream coming true...
I wish I can feel successful so that one day I can look back and have a smile on my face ...
I know that all this is part of your "plan"...
I just don't understand it ...
Even after 1 year...I failed to understand it